What if I fail?
Have you ever taken a leap of faith? Like you're standing at the open door of a plane and you're not sure your parachute is on? You look down at the world zipping past you and think can I do this? I am there. Right now. I'll be honest. It's terrifying. Or at minimum, keeps me up at night.
Being an indie artist takes a lot of work. I'm not complaining. I love the work. But they don't call it indie for nothing. Its you. Independent you. Especially if you are a solo artist. You wear a lot of hats. Singer. Songwriter. Booking agent. Marketer. Graphic Designer. Blogger. Videographer. And a host of other jobs. Sometimes it can be overwhelming.
And then it comes time to record. I've waited my life to record this album "Plush Red Chair". The songs are aching to be heard. A life time of stories and events waiting to be told or sung. I've wanted to perform since I was three years old. That's a long time ago. But life didn't seem to coincide with my dreams. Not that I'm complaining. I know had I been able to pursue my dream earlier, the music industry would have chewed me up and spat me out. I wouldn't have known what hit me. I was too sweet. Too trusting. Now I'm older and a little more streetwise. I'm still me, but I'm more wary. Less gullible. But still....it's been a long time to wait. I'm done waiting.
Recording this album is my open door of the plane. Recording a quality studio album isn't cheap! I've been lucky to receive a 35% grant from Creative BC, to help me along. I am very grateful for it. Where does the other 65% come from though? Enter the sleepless nights.
I sat there looking at the contract from Creative BC. It gives me a deadline to have the album released. Deadline. It's now or never. My dream sits before me. A life long dream. I have no idea how I'm going to make it all work. And yet ... this thing inside of me that yearns to tell my story, it wont go away. I must leap. Leap out of the plane. Have the faith that it will all come together. Do I dare?
So I did it. I signed the contract. Enter more sleepless nights. I realized Indie or not, I'm going to need help. A lot of help. Why would people want to help me? I don't know. But I figure if I am supposed to do this album, there are people out there who are supposed to help me get it done. Whether its at $10 at a time or $1000. So ... this is me jumping out of the plane. Trying not to be a doubting Thomas. Filling my lungs with the fresh air of faith.
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